I did it today. My mom and I ran some errands together today and while we were at the mall, I went into Barnes and Noble and bought a card. I was looking for a blank card with a rainbow on the cover; but, after looking in two shops for a rainbow card to no avail, I gave up as the anxiety of holding on to my secret was too much to bear. I found a card that had the colors of the rainbow and flowers on it. The envelope was bright green. I don't think my mom will forget this card. After our errands, my mom made her way home and I settled back into my house. I poured my heart out in a letter in the card. I probably could have said more, but all the words in the world would not be able to describe my wide array of feelings--anxiety/fear, relief, happiness, disappointment, the list goes on. I sealed the card in the envelope, decorated it with stickers, and placed a stamp on it to be ready to be mailed tomorrow.
I hope my mom understands and is able to accept my sexual orientation without much difficulty. I didn't leave her much room to sort through everything with me as I told her I am not ready to speak with her in person about it, which is why I mailed her a letter. Things might change once she reads it or she may not have any questions at all.
I will just have to wait and find out in a week or two.
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| The card I picked out. |
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